Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Book Review!

This book has given me a new perspective on the way I think and how I treat the opposite sex. I never realized that the outward will always be a result of what is inside of us. For example, if all we ever think about is death, killing and murder. Then eventually what do you think we will end up doing? This book is an amazing read and re-read. I would HIGHLY recommend it! 

Wait by Russel Kelfer


Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."


    I have been struggling lately with being content with what I have, and who God has made me, and what talents He has given me. It has been hard for me to accept that Jesus Christ is enough, that He is the only one that can and will fill my void. This poem is everything that I have been feeling, waiting on God's timing. Trusting that He has everything under control, and that He will give and take away things in their proper timing. I feel like I am always trying to rush life, worrying because I have no prospects, or because I am doing college from home I have no social life(not true). I need to be content in Christ, that His grace is sufficient for me. Praise God for his patience! :)

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

A New Milestone

Hello fellow bloggers!

     I had every intention of writing before graduation...let's just say that didn't happen. Life has shined its bit of craziness upon me. Not in a bad way, don't get me wrong this new step has been a challenge, but it has been one I am willing to face head on!(apply directly to the forehead;)

     My high school graduation has come and gone, and I'm not to sure that I feel different. I do believe that this new milestone is a tad bittersweet. I will miss all my wonderful, supportive friends that will be going off to college. While I am, by choice, completing my college education via Collegeplus! online. I must say I will be missing the social aspect of college life, which I so looked forward to. I love meeting new people, I think it might even be a hobby of mine. I do, however stick by my decision of finishing out my degree at home. I believe the Lord has more that He wants me to accomplish here at home, and in my community. Not completely sure what that is..yet. But, it is truly exciting! The anticipation of what could possibly coming towards me, full force, like a freight train, is exhilarating!

     During this new adventure in my life. I have been struck by the amount of wonderful people who have been praying for me my whole life. I must say, prayer is powerful. I just thank the Lord for placing good, godly, examples in my life to instruct, constructively criticize, love, and uplift me. For that I am truly blessed.

     This is my prayer as I face this new journey... I pray that I will grow closer to the Lord through His Word. And that I will give Him all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. That I may be used completely for His will, and for His glory. I pray I will be completely filled with the Holy Spirit, my whole being, the very air I breathe will be Jesus Christ. And that He alone will shine through my actions, words, conduct, and mind. I pray, that in the coming days, and for the rest of my existence on this earth that my one important life goal, is that I will be "Fully Committed to Christ", that I may truly know Him.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

God Fills My Void

     Psalm 36:7-9, 'How excellent is thy loving kindness, O God! Therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy wings.' 

     'They shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of thy house, and thous shalt make them drink of the river of thy pleasure.'

      'For with thee is the fountain of life: in thy light shall we see light.'


     What a comfort to know we can be protected under the wings of our Savior. How we can be satisfied, and how God can fill our every longing. He can overflow our void with love, and peace! If that doesn't make you smile, I don't know what will! :)

Friday, January 20, 2012

Our Life Is But A Vapor

     It hit me, that reality check ton of bricks. I finally for the first time in a long time stopped and thought about how short my life really is. I was reminded of a little boy, Bryce who went to our church, so full of life, always smiling like he hadn't a care in the world...but he did. He had cancer. It always amazed me how we can go through life and take for granted all the little things that we can do like, brushing our teeth, eating Frosted Flakes, walking out to get the mail. Those are things we hardly ever think twice about, but so often we are blessed to even have the ability to grasp a toothbrush, or eat food without using a feeding tube, even the ability to walk. So I am thankful...thankful and content with the abilities and gifts God has given me...ashamed because I do not use my talents to their full potential, and rebuked because I am to proud to be humble, contrite, and broken. As I look back on Bryce's example, and that of his family's, some things really stood out to me. His parent's willingness to accept and submit to His will, whatever that was to be. They never were angry at their God, for allowing their precious son to have cancer, they never mocked or scorned their Heavenly Father because of bitterness or animosity. They meekly and humbly knelt before their Father and praised the God who gives...and takes away. Romans 8:28 says, 'And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.' All things do work out for good, though we may go through trials there is a purpose and plan, even though we may not know that plan...God is all-knowing and His Will is perfect and just in all it's ways.
     Bryce went to meet His Heavenly Father last year,  June 21, 2011. And oh how I envy him, to see our Heavenly Father face to face! Praising and glorifying the Creator of all, Healer to the sick, All-Powerful, All-Knowing, Caring, Loving, Just, Mighty, Faithful, Trusting...my best friend, my confidant, my caring loving Father who always has the correct answer for everything, my God who sends me trials only to build me up stronger and to have more faith. And I am so thankful he is a jealous God...(you may think.."What???") yes, He is jealous. He is striving for our every moment, yearning for that time with just you and Him, He is hungering for a taste of total complete surrender of your life, He wants your every moments to be filled with His Light and guidance, He is knocking that special knock at the door into your heart and your life...and all you have to do is invite Him in. So don't waste your life on petty things, start living for the only thing that matters...to live, serve, and die for our God.
     And yes, Bryce is sorely missed, and though he did not leave behind a legacy as the world would say...he left behind an example, testimony, and light that will burn in the hearts of those he touched.

    'Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.' James 4:14

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Trust In The Lord

     Proverbs 3:5-6 says, 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and lean not on your own understanding. In all they ways acknowledge Him, and he shall direct your paths.'

     I found this verse to be extremely evident in my life the past month. To elaborate, I have been studying for this HUGE exam. And it just seemed to be so overwhelming to me, and I was getting so stressed and so worried the closer it came to the test. I seriously found a white hair, and that's hard for me to do since my hair is jet black. Needless to say every time I did my devotions or heard a sermon, it always came up about how we need to cast all our cares upon the Lord for He cares for us. I know now the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me something, I just think that we get to scared or stubborn to listen. I think we all "know" what God can do for us, but never allow Him the chance to work in our live because we always want to do things our own way, and be independent. Once I finally prayed, "Lord, I can't do this in my own strength, it is only by Your power and might I can accomplish anything at all. I give my burdens and cares to You..." 
      It felt like I was in an ocean that was tossing me about taking me farther away from shore, but after I cried out to God, it was like the crashing waves turned into tides of peace and reassurance overwhelming me with His grace and love. There are hardly any words to explain the peace and comfort you feel. I felt like a encased butterfly in my cocoon...warm, engulfed in love. That truly is a wonderful feeling, it showed me how I'm never alone. My God will always be near my side to comfort me.
     To close, I did end up passing my test. Praise God! I'm so extremely thankful. God does answer prayer and give us peace and comfort when we ask and even when we don't think we need it. He is there for us always. :)

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Another Year Come and Gone

     It is inevitable...the time only goes faster the older you get. Everyone is always saying, "It feels so different for it to be a new year!" I just look at them like they are just feeling the after effects of to much bean dip. For me, the only thing that changes, or rather feels any different is that it takes me another 6 months to try and get used to writing a new year. I did that today...in the doctor's office...twice! Wow, it's only the third of January and I've written that  many times already. Although, it is a good reminder that I'm not perfect. I need that every now and then. Anyway...

     This past year has brought its joys, trials, and the failing times in life. However, my only constant hope, eternal divine peace, is my Heavenly Father. I praise my God who brings me joy and happiness, thankful for  Father who always comforts me in times of need, and forgives me when I fail.

     I adore my God who picks me up when I trip and fall(I do this quite often), and cleanses my wounds, and puts a band-aid on my knee, and knows that this wound will heal with time...although it will leave a lifelong scar. These scars make us the people who we will eventually become. Without them we wouldn't have learned that, doing this certain sin 'does' have its consequences. I guess the phrase, "Live and Learn" really does ring true. I'm just thankful that He forgives me, I know I need it countless times a day.

     I'm looking forward to the New Year, I'm excited to see what God has in store for my life in 2012. I know it will be a wonderful year, because my Heavenly Father is a loving, caring Father. And His Will is always perfect, true, and made just for me...  So bring it on 2012!